I've decided that I don't really like being an adult. It's too hard. I don't like responsibility. I don't like having to suck it up and deal with things. I don't like being the bigger person. If I'm mad at you, I want to be able to tell you that I'm mad at you. If I need to scream, I want to be able to scream. I want to play. I want to smile and laugh and discover the unknown.
I watched 13 Going On 30 again recently - I had forgot how much I love it. I find it inspiring. I want to maintain my childish enthusiasm. I want to live spherically, in many directions. I want to forever be able to explore and hold the right to be curious and ridiculous.
Especially in relationships; so many women put themselves into the role of parent with their boyfriends/ husbands. Why? It just causes them to resent you and besides, you women know just as much as I do that it isn't fun to parent. Have fun! Live in Neverland, don't be afraid to be goofy, have snow ball fights and eat lots of candy. Get on a tire swing, swing as high as you can, close your eyes and pretend that you're flying. Remember what that was like? I miss that. I search for it every day. That feeling of discovery, with self and the world. The feeling of freedom, the belief that you can accomplish anything that you want to. President! Astronaut! Deep sea diver!
I reserve the right to be playful, fun and bubbly. If you must pout, don't do it around me.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
The Influence of Righteous Women
I stumbled on this speech completely by accident when I was on the Church website, but it really hit home for me because of the things I've been going through lately. Plus, Lori & I constantly talk about this type of thing during our spiritual discussions. These are the types of words that are good for me to read when I'm having a day like today.
Dieter F. Uchtdorf, “The Influence of Righteous Women,” Liahona, Sept. 2009:
The scriptures give us names of several women who have blessed individuals and generations with their spiritual gifts. Eve, the mother of all living; Sarah; Rebekah; Rachel; Martha; Elisabeth; and Mary, the mother of our Savior, will always be honored and remembered. The scriptures also mention women whose names are unknown to us but who bless our lives through their examples and teachings, like the woman of Samaria whom Jesus met at the well of Sychar (see John 4), the ideal wife and mother described in Proverbs 31, and the faithful woman who was made whole just by touching the Savior’s clothes (see Mark 5:25–34).
As we look at the history of this earth and at the history of the restored Church of Jesus Christ, it becomes obvious that women hold a special place in our Father’s plan for the eternal happiness and well-being of His children.
I hope that my dear sisters throughout the world... never underestimate the power of their influence for good.
President Gordon B. Hinckley counseled the women of the Church:
“It is so tremendously important that the women of the Church stand strong and immovable for that which is correct and proper under the plan of the Lord… We call upon the women of the Church to stand together for righteousness. They must begin in their own homes. They can teach it in their classes. They can voice it in their communities.”
There is a saying that big gates move on small hinges. Sisters, your example in seemingly small things will make a big difference in the lives of our young people... If you love to go to the temple, the young people who value your example will also love to go. If you adapt your wardrobe to the temple garment and not the other way around, they will know what you consider important, and they will learn from you. You are marvelous sisters and great examples. Our youth are blessed by you, and the Lord loves you for that.
A Unique Feminine Identity
The lives of women in the Church are a powerful witness that spiritual gifts, promises, and blessings of the Lord are given to all those who qualify, “that all may be benefited” (D&C 46:9; see verses 9–26). Because their potential for good is so great and their gifts so diverse, women may find themselves in roles that vary with their circumstances in life. Some women, in fact, must fill many roles simultaneously. For this reason, Latter-day Saint women are encouraged to acquire an education and training that will qualify them both for homemaking and raising a righteous family and for earning a living outside the home if the occasion requires.
We are living in a great season for all women in the Church. Sisters, you are an essential part of our Heavenly Father’s plan for eternal happiness; you are endowed with a divine birthright. You are the real builders of nations wherever you live, because strong homes of love and peace will bring security to any nation. I hope you understand that, and I hope the men of the Church understand it too.
What you sisters do today will determine how the principles of the restored gospel can influence the nations of the world tomorrow. It will determine how these heavenly rays of the gospel will light every land in the future.
Though we often speak of the influence of women on future generations, please do not underestimate the influence you can have today. President David O. McKay (1873–1970) said that the principal reason the Church was organized is “to make life sweet today, to give contentment to the heart today, to bring salvation today… Some of us look forward to a time in the future—salvation and exaltation in the world to come—but today is part of eternity.”
Blessings beyond Imagining
As you live up to this mission, in whatever life circumstance you find yourself—as a wife, as a mother, as a single mother, as a divorced woman, as a widowed or a single woman—the Lord our God will open up responsibilities and blessings far beyond your ability to imagine.
May I invite you to rise to the great potential within you. But don’t reach beyond your capacity. Don’t set goals beyond your capacity to achieve. Don’t feel guilty or dwell on thoughts of failure. Don’t compare yourself with others. Do the best you can, and the Lord will provide the rest. Have faith and confidence in Him, and you will see miracles happen in your life and the lives of your loved ones. The virtue of your own life will be a light to those who sit in darkness, because you are a living witness of the fullness of the gospel (see D&C 45:28). Wherever you have been planted on this beautiful but often troubled earth of ours, you can be the one to “succor the weak, lift up the hands which hang down, and strengthen the feeble knees” (D&C 81:5).
My dear sisters, as you live your daily life with all its blessings and challenges, let me assure you that the Lord loves you. He knows you. He listens to your prayers, and He answers those prayers, wherever on this world you may be. He wants you to succeed in this life and in eternity.
Brethren, I pray that we as priesthood holders—as husbands, fathers, sons, brothers, and friends of these choice women—may see them as the Lord sees them, as daughters of God with limitless potential to influence the world for good.
The Prophet Joseph Smith told the sisters, “If you live up to your privileges, the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates.”
Of these truths I testify, and I extend to you my love and my blessing as an Apostle of our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ.
Dieter F. Uchtdorf, “The Influence of Righteous Women,” Liahona, Sept. 2009:
The scriptures give us names of several women who have blessed individuals and generations with their spiritual gifts. Eve, the mother of all living; Sarah; Rebekah; Rachel; Martha; Elisabeth; and Mary, the mother of our Savior, will always be honored and remembered. The scriptures also mention women whose names are unknown to us but who bless our lives through their examples and teachings, like the woman of Samaria whom Jesus met at the well of Sychar (see John 4), the ideal wife and mother described in Proverbs 31, and the faithful woman who was made whole just by touching the Savior’s clothes (see Mark 5:25–34).
As we look at the history of this earth and at the history of the restored Church of Jesus Christ, it becomes obvious that women hold a special place in our Father’s plan for the eternal happiness and well-being of His children.
I hope that my dear sisters throughout the world... never underestimate the power of their influence for good.
President Gordon B. Hinckley counseled the women of the Church:
“It is so tremendously important that the women of the Church stand strong and immovable for that which is correct and proper under the plan of the Lord… We call upon the women of the Church to stand together for righteousness. They must begin in their own homes. They can teach it in their classes. They can voice it in their communities.”
There is a saying that big gates move on small hinges. Sisters, your example in seemingly small things will make a big difference in the lives of our young people... If you love to go to the temple, the young people who value your example will also love to go. If you adapt your wardrobe to the temple garment and not the other way around, they will know what you consider important, and they will learn from you. You are marvelous sisters and great examples. Our youth are blessed by you, and the Lord loves you for that.
A Unique Feminine Identity
The lives of women in the Church are a powerful witness that spiritual gifts, promises, and blessings of the Lord are given to all those who qualify, “that all may be benefited” (D&C 46:9; see verses 9–26). Because their potential for good is so great and their gifts so diverse, women may find themselves in roles that vary with their circumstances in life. Some women, in fact, must fill many roles simultaneously. For this reason, Latter-day Saint women are encouraged to acquire an education and training that will qualify them both for homemaking and raising a righteous family and for earning a living outside the home if the occasion requires.
We are living in a great season for all women in the Church. Sisters, you are an essential part of our Heavenly Father’s plan for eternal happiness; you are endowed with a divine birthright. You are the real builders of nations wherever you live, because strong homes of love and peace will bring security to any nation. I hope you understand that, and I hope the men of the Church understand it too.
What you sisters do today will determine how the principles of the restored gospel can influence the nations of the world tomorrow. It will determine how these heavenly rays of the gospel will light every land in the future.
Though we often speak of the influence of women on future generations, please do not underestimate the influence you can have today. President David O. McKay (1873–1970) said that the principal reason the Church was organized is “to make life sweet today, to give contentment to the heart today, to bring salvation today… Some of us look forward to a time in the future—salvation and exaltation in the world to come—but today is part of eternity.”
Blessings beyond Imagining
As you live up to this mission, in whatever life circumstance you find yourself—as a wife, as a mother, as a single mother, as a divorced woman, as a widowed or a single woman—the Lord our God will open up responsibilities and blessings far beyond your ability to imagine.
May I invite you to rise to the great potential within you. But don’t reach beyond your capacity. Don’t set goals beyond your capacity to achieve. Don’t feel guilty or dwell on thoughts of failure. Don’t compare yourself with others. Do the best you can, and the Lord will provide the rest. Have faith and confidence in Him, and you will see miracles happen in your life and the lives of your loved ones. The virtue of your own life will be a light to those who sit in darkness, because you are a living witness of the fullness of the gospel (see D&C 45:28). Wherever you have been planted on this beautiful but often troubled earth of ours, you can be the one to “succor the weak, lift up the hands which hang down, and strengthen the feeble knees” (D&C 81:5).
My dear sisters, as you live your daily life with all its blessings and challenges, let me assure you that the Lord loves you. He knows you. He listens to your prayers, and He answers those prayers, wherever on this world you may be. He wants you to succeed in this life and in eternity.
Brethren, I pray that we as priesthood holders—as husbands, fathers, sons, brothers, and friends of these choice women—may see them as the Lord sees them, as daughters of God with limitless potential to influence the world for good.
The Prophet Joseph Smith told the sisters, “If you live up to your privileges, the angels cannot be restrained from being your associates.”
Of these truths I testify, and I extend to you my love and my blessing as an Apostle of our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Empty house
For so long, whenever I had roommates, I would be happy during the times that everyone left and I could have the house to myself. I guess it goes to prove how much I love Lori and Ging because no one is home right now (or really has been all weekend) and it makes me a little sad. I sound pathetic. Really, though, they bring life to the house. Especially when Lori and I have hours-long conversations about everything from spiritual matters to the men in our lives. Ah yes :) I love girl talk with her; she's so insightful, it makes conversations more of a discovery than a rant. I always have epiphanies when we chat. It's nice.
Hm, quarter to 3am. Maybe I should go to bed ;)
Hm, quarter to 3am. Maybe I should go to bed ;)
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Saturdays should be more interesting than this...
I'm exhausted. Totally weird, too because I fell asleep last night at midnight & didn't wake up until 1pm. Ridiculous. Plus, I must have slept on my neck wrong because it's hurt all day & has caused a massive headache that has lasted several hours. Ow :( I had the strangest litany of dreams last night. I made out with Troy. Gross. I was staying with family and Wesley & Buttercup were visiting - extremely weird. Then, I was a duck. Yeah, a duck. Taking flying lessons. There was a lightening storm, then a yellow rubber ducky dating the ugly duck, then my ex was stealing food from a vending machine, some famous Asian chic watching TV, the scene from Peter Pan with the indian dudes and the tepee on the edge of a cliff, saving a princess... Does anyone else have dreams like this!?!? But hey, I'm extremely odd, so I suppose it all makes sense.
I scrubbed the entire house today, yay! I even dusted. Yes, that's right, dusted! I was pretty impressed myself. And I finally organized the cabinet in the laundry room :D
I talked to Fin tonight. That guy cracks me up. Married with 2 kids & he stills openly admits how much he loves hitting on me. It's like Rick all over again. Josh is asking about my love life, but I think more out of parental-type concern lol. Also, I saw Reeve on Thursday and the first thing he said to me was, "Are you married yet!?". Good grief.
I scrubbed the entire house today, yay! I even dusted. Yes, that's right, dusted! I was pretty impressed myself. And I finally organized the cabinet in the laundry room :D
I talked to Fin tonight. That guy cracks me up. Married with 2 kids & he stills openly admits how much he loves hitting on me. It's like Rick all over again. Josh is asking about my love life, but I think more out of parental-type concern lol. Also, I saw Reeve on Thursday and the first thing he said to me was, "Are you married yet!?". Good grief.
Don't ask me how I've been
I'm not the greatest song writer, so I love artists that have said it for me :) Yay Ok Go!
Quit acting so friendly.
Don't nod, don't laugh all nicely.
Don't think you'll up-end me.
Don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea.
And don't say, 'It's been a while...'
And don't flash that stupid smile.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
Don't think I've forgotten,
you never liked that necklace.
So cordial, so rotten...
Kiss, kiss, let's meet for breakfast.
Don't show up so on-time
And don't act like you're so kind.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
So don't sit there and play just so frank,
So straight, so candid,
So thoughtful, so gracious,
So sound, so even-handed.
Don't be so damn benign
And don't waste my f***ing time.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
Don't ask me how I've been.
Quit acting so friendly.
Don't nod, don't laugh all nicely.
Don't think you'll up-end me.
Don't sigh, don't sip your iced-tea.
And don't say, 'It's been a while...'
And don't flash that stupid smile.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
Don't think I've forgotten,
you never liked that necklace.
So cordial, so rotten...
Kiss, kiss, let's meet for breakfast.
Don't show up so on-time
And don't act like you're so kind.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
So don't sit there and play just so frank,
So straight, so candid,
So thoughtful, so gracious,
So sound, so even-handed.
Don't be so damn benign
And don't waste my f***ing time.
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me,
Don't ask me, ask me, ask me how I've been.
Don't ask me how I've been.
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